Over 3 years ago I moved away from my family and friends to live in a sunny island in the Mediterranean, Malta.
For as long as I can remember I have loved sunny weather and being on the beach. I did not realise that there are actually many reasons why you can genuinely feel happier and healthier there, I just knew it felt good for me.
I had written down the goal years previously that I wanted a salon in the sun. Then I got one.
I know about the law of attraction and use it consciously daily, but it still amazes me when the things you ask for show up.
The salon in the sun took me to Malta. I could not live there at first due to other commitments in the UK but as soon as I was able I took off to follow my dream of living in the sun.
I only had one grandson at the time and he was going to pre school, leaving him was heart wrenching but I knew I would be seeing much less of him anyway, at least that is how I consoled myself.
It had never crossed my mind I would love being a granny. Not once did I ever think or dream about grandkids, I just dreamt of freedom.
Then Xavi came along and took my well forgotten heart out and I experienced something other grans had explained to me, but I had never, ever believed would happen to me. Spending time with him was the thing I loved to do above any other.
Just before I moved my mum was diagnosed with lymphoma. At that time they did not treat her, they used a protocal called watch and wait. A few months after my move my daughter called me to tell me she was pregnant. Shortly after that mums condition deteriorated and chemo came into the equation.
The freedom I had assumed would be mine was not what I had thought it would be.
Jumping on a super yacht for a year could not happen. Well it could if I was prepared to leave my family when they needed me, but that could never be.
When Joni was born she was a character from birth. But very different to Xavi as she cared for no one except her mum. This made it impossible to me to have the same relationship with her at that time. In a way it made it easier, she only wanted her mum or sometimes her dad or uncle Peter.
I came back and forward through mums treatment and spent time with my grandkids. Then my dad got diagnosed. His cancer was a biggy, he had 6 months left. I moved home. My daughter told me she was pregnant again, so I knew the pull for home was going to get stronger. After 5 months in the rain over the winter I realised I could not live there again. I was desperate to get back to Malta. Then when I got there it felt weird, Where should I be? Sometime here and there, was that the way for me to do it?
Then I came home to help launch the Key to Health and Wellbeing and to stay for a month to help with my new grandchild.
What a different trip this was. Joni greeted me with great delight and we became inseperable.
The weather was awesome, I was at the birth of our new boy in the pool in Argyll, he is another joy and delight to be around. I loved every second of being here and again have to re examine what is right for me and my family.
As I return to Malta I am really excited to be going into a full blown proper heat wave My friends and family are over all Summer and we will have a ball. I could not give up my summers, I need and my body needs that heat and the incredible atmosphere that is this magical island.
I know other people face this dilema, it can be agonising not to be with your grand kids but if you can come back regularly and they can come to you then it is doable.
I know as they get older they will love having a gran in the sun.
It is essential to travel and meet other cultures, I firmly believe that.
Getting out your comfort zone makes you a better, stronger, more flexible, tolerant person.
Malta is an easy distance from home, I can and have had to return in a moments notice and I can do that without breaking the bank. I can get home the same day or the next if I have to. This gives me peace of mind and makes it easy for visitors.
So its seems that dividing my time is the way ahead for now.
Life is all about our family and friends, and spending time with them.
So until I can get everyone over to Malta, I will continue to enjoy both islands. :)
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